I've Done Ayahuasca Over 30 Times & I'm Still An Asshole
A Journey Through Ego, Expectations, and the Relentless Search for Presence
I had first heard about it when I lived in the Bay Area - the place where you would hear about that sort of thing. The way it was described was often with the least desirable aspects upfront. ‘You shit yourself and puke your brains out for 8 hours.’ Looking back I think that perspective was shared by people who didn’t benefit from it in the ways they set out to and because of that, felt compelled to preemptively rain (or shit, or puke) on the parade. Or, it was just something they heard on the internet and had never experienced it for themselves.
The ego is a ‘funny’ thing. It doesn’t like to be wrong and does everything within its god-given rights to ensure that!
So to say ‘you shit yourself’ is a completely unaware, ego-driven statement of subjectivity that assumes, incorrectly, a universal validity.
As it just so happens, in the 30+ times I’ve drank ayahuasca, I have not once, shit myself. Actually to the contrary, I usually get quite constipated, which is to say, I am literally full of shit.
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